Now we come to the third question. Just like the second question, I do not find the third question difficult. And again, there is the concern that I will sound conceited when I say, with a certain amount of confidence, that I am good at something. But, when one is interviewing for a job, it is important answer the questions you are asked. Continue reading
Look, I admit it – I was a psycho, and I was certain he was making a mistake by breaking up with me. Continue reading
The pictures relighted the spark in my heart. It was time to get the post written, and it was time to put the video together. Continue reading
Yesterday, I invited myself to a party. Yes, I invited myself to my very own pity party, and I sat at a table for one. The music playing in the background was the song by Moving Pictures, “What About Me”.
“I want my share.” I thought to myself. “I’m tired of being overlooked.” Continue reading
The family gathered in the living room waiting for our nephew to start opening his birthday cards and presents. He opened his first card and read it aloud. When he got to the handwritten sentiment, he had to pass it to someone else to read. “I can’t read cursive.” He said.
What?! What did my 14yr old nephew say? He can’t read cursive? What?!
Seeing my shock, my sister-in-law said, “They don’t teach cursive in school anymore.” Continue reading
I interrupt my sick-induced respite, as well as your life, to bring you this breaking news.
My 7yr old has just alerted me to the fact that frozen foods cure fevers.
Due to technical difficulties, we are not able to bring you any video or audio of the incredible and groundbreaking information. What follows is a copy of the transcript.
Joe: Mommy, did you know frozen foods cure fevers?
Mommy: No, I did not know that.
Joe: Well, it is true. When you have a fever, it is because your body is very hot. So, what you do is you eat lots of frozen food. The cold from the frozen food will meet up with the germs, which are hot. Once the frozen foods connect with the germs, the germs sizzle. You’ll feel a little weird at first, but then you’ll feel better. So, since you have a fever, you should eat frozen foods. Oh, and you need to drink tons of water, too. Frozen foods and water are very important when you have a fever.
This concludes this breaking news story, you may return to your life already in progress.
When I walked into the kitchen one morning, I found the boys sitting on the counter. My heart skipped a beat, as I remembered another kitchen counter moment several years ago, when they were much younger. Continue reading
School is out for the summer. While the kids can be heard singing Alice Cooper’s “School’s Out” for the next couple of months, parents break into a rendition of Andy Williams’ “It’s the most wonderful time of the year”, when school starts again in the fall.
I like Alice Cooper and Andy Williams, but I channel a different singer and song. In fact, I channel this singer and song throughout the year, regardless of school or school breaks. Continue reading
If my Dad were still alive, he’d be celebrating his 84th birthday on Sunday. He died nearly 20 years ago.
My Dad was born on May 13th. Sometimes his birthday fell on the dreaded Friday the 13th, and sometimes his birthday fell on Sundays, which were always Mother’s Day.
As my Dad’s birthday approaches, I cannot help but think of my Mom. And this year, as Mother’s Day approaches, I cannot help but think of my Dad.
Thankfully, I can spend Mother’s Day with my Mom, because she is still alive. That is I could spend the day with her but I won’t because – well, I’ll get to that in a minute. Continue reading
If you have not read the two prior posts (My Story :: Prologue and My Story :: Two Nights), you should go back and read the previous posts first. This is the epilogue. This is the post where I tell you I am “OK”.
The experiences I had were awful. If I let myself think about the incidents for too long, the tears will return, as will the knot and the sick feeling in my stomach.
The first assault is the one that bothers me the most. In my opinion, his assault was more intrusive and invasive than intercourse. I was pinned down. Once he was on my face, I could not move my head left, right, up, or down. I moved my legs, but my legs did not free me. He forced himself in my mouth, and he remained there until he finished what he started.
He got to me, and he haunts me the most. I had never seen a penis before this guy! What the hell? I hate – hate – how he took away the innocent and trusting person that lived inside of me. I hate – hate – how he changed my view of sex forever.
I did not report either incident, and I regret that fact. I remember the first name of the first guy, but I haven’t a clue the name of the other guy, and these many years later, I would not be able to identify either one in a line-up.
There is not a doubt in my mind that the person I was prior to these incidents is not the person I am today. Still, I have had 20yrs to get to know this person, and she is growing on me. She still laughs hard, she just trusts a little less. She still likes adventure, she just feels more comfortable at home.
I have said, “I wish it never happened,” but now – now that I am married and have two awesome kids, I have stopped saying I wish it never happened. Because, if it didn’t happen, would I have Rob? Would I have Joe and Charlie? How could it be better than Rob, Joe and Charlie?
Seriously, I thank God that I met Rob. He is the perfect match for me when it comes to my quirks, insecurities, and issues that were more than likely caused (or magnified) by the past experiences.
So, although those guys definitely took something from me and left me broken, I got my hands on some duct tape and put myself back together. I have so much more than I did before the crap, and for that – I am thankful. I am OK.
Thank you for reading my words. I appreciate your support. If you can relate to my words, my heart goes out to you. Please know, you survived. You are OK.